Final post request...
 

your Robin:

So I had something to do here before I left, and I guess I'm going to
take a pass on doing that... I was going to 'share my testimony' about
the importance of friends as 'extended family.' Why have I stuck
around CG as long as I have? To make friends. Mike's and my
'divorce' left a big hole in me, and since I spend 90% of my working
day on computers with the internet, CG seemed as good a place as any
to try to make some new friends. The character and nature of the
board format and the types of characters that the board attracts all
seemed to make a more fertile combination for the development of
genuine friendship compared to places like CB. So there you go. The
most I could have ever hoped for in coming here was a place to kick up
my feet, BS and debate about some ideas, post vacation photos, chat
about movies and books, and maybe organize a camping trip, or a tail
gate, or some REAL world gathering of 'friends.'

But I'm going to cut that speech short... because somebody shared with
me access to the crypt. I didn't ask for it, but it was shared all
the same. I read every post, from the beginning, that had the word
"robin" in the title of the thread... what can I say? Interesting for
sure. I may have never made it into the crypt, but I was certainly
'in the crypt.'

What I learned from the crypt, which I wish I would have learned a
long time ago, is the extent to which I 'poisoned the well.' That is
incredibly regrettable, since I have spent a lot of time 'repenting'
and trying to build 'relationships of trust.' Had I realized to what
extent my efforts were being undermined and belittled, I would have
tossed in the towel a long time ago.

So that is what I'm doing now. I toss in the towel. To the people
with whom I developed any real friendship, you can find me at
rogan.ferguson@gmail.com . To the people that I offended, sorry.

Farrah, I can't think of any 'dirty secrets' that I know about Mike
that you should know about. Don't let that idea become a 'cancer' in
your mind. That was an ambiguous TIC repsonse to Mike's ambiguous
suggestion that there are good secret reasons to not trust me. For a
long time I thought he might be gay, and that is about it. At this
point I would defer to your expertise on the subject.

Mike, I wonder what friend called my relationship with her 'altruistic
masochism.' Nice of you to share that detail with a bunch of internet
strangers, most of whom you have never met.

Anonymous, thanks for sharing access to the crypt. I may not have
asked for it, but it brings a lot of loose ends together, and will
make my separation from CG that much easier.

All the same, I know my weaknesses, and CG has become a bit of a
fixation for me, an obvious fact for all to see. So Mike, it would be
helpful if you could go ahead and 'ban me for life' now. Physician
assisted suicide.

Cheers!

R.

Thanks fusi.

Mike/Archaea, the bullet, please.

Well Mike good thing your not Gay!

Robin, your reading all of the posts in the crypt because you accidentally got access was the equivalent of reading Mike's journal because he left it out on the coffee table. Yeah, it was there for the reading, but you lose the right to bitch about what it says inside because you were never invited to read it in the first place.